I try to make my blog as positive as possible but I think its okay to admit that we’re not okay and that we’re going through a rough time. I’m not going to lie, living in a sighted world as a blind person is so so hard at times. Honestly, I don’t know how I get through it sometimes.
I’ve been blind since birth so being blind in the sighted world is just the norm for me. God do I wish that I was living in the sighted world like everyone else.
The most upsetting part for me is that I have no idea what my friends or family look like and I don’t know if I’ll ever be able to see their faces.
What I wish:
I wish I could see my friends and families smiles, their faces when something amazing happens. Everyone says my dog is “cute”, I don’t know what she looks like. I wish I could see what my favourite celebrity (Jessie J) looks like, the person who’s music has kept me going in my darkest times, kept me strong when I felt like giving up and continues to inspire me every single day. I would love the chance to meet her to thank her for everything and actually think “wow, I have seen my idol in person.” I wish I could see what my university friends look like. I wish I could see what the photos we take together look like. I wish I could snapchat my friends. I wish I could take photos/videos easily. I wish I could see the computer screen. I wish I could see print, not feel braille. I wish I could see the beauty in this world. I wish I knew what I actually look like. I wish that people didn’t just see me as the “blind girl”. I wish that one day I can actually see what my husband and children look like. I wish that I don’t have to remember where everything is. I wish that I could just go for a walk without memorising every route I have to take. I wish that I could ride a bike in the city. I wish that I could drive a car like all my friends and just jump in my own car and drive to wherever I want to. I just want to experience the sighted world as a sighted person.
I haven’t wrote this post for sympathy, I’ve wrote it to help others. I know that accepting blindness is hard, I’ve been blind all my life and I still have my down days. But I try to accept it, not let it be a barrier and not stop me from getting to where I want to be in life. Blind people have feelings and ambitions. I know there are people in far worse situations than me but I just wanted to highlight the things that us blind people want and wish for. In reality, being blind is far from easy but life is what you make it.
Thank you for reading